Blog Challenge: Day 1 – Be Clear

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I captured today’s photo on my first day in Ubud, Bali. I had been walking along a trail when I came upon several dark green ponds sprinkled with an abundance of dark rose, dusty cotton candy, and creamy peach pink lotus flowers.

The lotus flower has long been known as a symbol of clarity and awakening — it’s pristine petals bloom from roots anchored deep in the mud.

So today let’s get clear: Where do you live in the mud of the past, taking the same actions over and over again and sinking in the quick sand of familiarity? And where do you blossom in your life, looking to the sunshine and drawing nourishment from the gifts of the mud?

We can see the mud as negative, something messy that we wish we didn’t have to deal with. But when we judge the muddy places we are denying where we came from and missing out on the lessons that the past brings us.

Our work is to open our hearts to the mud, to see it’s value and it’s lessons, and then to bring all of our patience, creativity, and spunk to transformation. When we keep judging ourselves, wishing we were someplace else, or feeling victimized by the muddy aspects of our life we are clouding our own vision. But when we bring the soft eyes of compassion and presence to ourselves the mud starts settling, and our waters become clear again.

Name five muddy issues in your life; places where you feel stuck, confused, or keep repeating an old pattern.

Don’t think, go!






Now smile. Thank yourself for your clarity. And read the list over, this time looking through the clear eyes of compassion. You didn’t just decide to have these issues for no reason; you have a history, experiences, and habits that brought you to this point. As you read the list again, be curious about how these behaviors of stuck places have served you: for example through bringing more understanding to others that have similar issues, or by giving you the illusion of safety. Don’t think too much about it, just scan over the list and bring your gratitude rather than your frustration.

Now pick one issue to start working on. One. Not three, not two. One. You can come back to the others later.

As you sit with the one muddy issue you are going to bring your attention to, ask yourself: What new blossom wants to emerge from the fertile mud of this behaviors and experiences? What is my vision of what is possible? Let yourself dream and feel yourself holding clear water instead of mud in your hands in regards to this issue.

Now commit to making a change. What is your action? Remember, baby steps. Don’t take on too much at once, let yourself go for slow and steady. Hold the image of the lotus flower in your heart, and ask God/Goddess/Creator or your highest self to help you shift from struggling in the heaviness of the mud to opening your petals to the wisdom and clarity of the sunshine.

7 thoughts on “Blog Challenge: Day 1 – Be Clear

  1. Thank you. As I revisit my list, I realized that I am telling myself “yes, that’s great but I cannot stay focused on that ONE thing” then It came to me that what I chose focus on, was not what I truly need to jumpstart. What I need is not on the list!! I cannot spring clean, clear clutter etc…if I cannot stay focused. Now to figure out HOW to tell myself it is ok to stay focused on something that I want…it is awkward and strange when I am so used to helping EVERYONE else first. PEACE!

    1. The exact same four I immediately came up with. Which I think leads me to my fifth and most important, the discipline and love to care for myself. I hope if I can learn to clear that first, it will help me learn to clear the others as well.

  2. I am committing to self care. All 5 muddy places really are about taking care of myself. And the one I truly need to do first is not taking on other’s responsibilities. Although I see my kindness and compassion in this, I get taken advantage of and this is not a good feeling. I am a warrior goddess and I can make this change!

  3. I have been distracting myself and then wondering why I “don’t have enough time” It is because of the way I am using my time. I talk about practices and actions I want in my life but then I give my energy to other things. One of the ways I do this is scrolling through Facebook to feel connected to others that are far away but that I want to interact with. While doing this exercise I realized that FB has been great for those times that I was not able to connect deeply or commit time to others but that I want to connect in a more intentional way. I took the app off my phone. I still have the account but I have made it less accessible. I am committing to more intentional connection, and making space for “me time.”

  4. My negative self talk…keeps me in the mud…which for me feels like holding my breathe…or stopping… which somehow creates chaos. Being aware of this is my ticket out into remembering to breath in life, expansion, lessons of the mud, the ebb and flow, movement, etc. Now to pick just one, hee hee. Hmm, I like remembering to breath…to release holding my breathe.

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